Author: Joelle White

Our Karate organization held our annual Godo Renshu this past Saturday.  The translation for Godo Renshu is “Unity Training.”  We did some of that, but we had even more fun with other events and activities.

Two out of the five of us who packed ourselves into my car for a total of six hours of drive time are international students at the college where I work.  I had no idea when I took the job that I’d meet these incredible young ladies who I have the good fortune of knowing and, as they put it, “playing Karate” with.  I suspect that if I continue to work for the International Student Program I’ll get to know even more young karateka from around the world.

The day started off with belt testing for color belts.  As I’d hoped, I saw someone my own rank test for his next belt.  Now I have a better idea of what to expect at my next belt test.  I really, really, really need to improve on my combinations of basic techniques and my sparring.

At any promotion after the successful candidates receive their new belts those who are among the higher ranks of the color belts help children who don’t quite know how to tie their own belts yet.  I went over to one little fellow and started to untie his belt.  Next thing I know, a little girl approximately my own rank came over, called the little guy by his name, congratulated him, then gently took over the belt-tying duty from me.  It was such a beautiful moment my heart melted.

Next up for testing were the brown belts going up for their first degree black belts and those black belts who were testing for their next degree.  This is always great to watch.  The tests are difficult.  One sees some great karate, that’s for sure!  It’s obvious these karateka (karate folks) have prepared extensively for these tests.  I wanna grow up to be just like them.  Age is just a number.  Watch me.

Sometime in all this excitement we had lunch.  My main concern was not getting grape jelly on my pretty white gi (karate uniform)…  Yeah.  I should’ve opted for turkey.

The actual Godo Renshu was so much fun that I don’t know whether it was two hours or just one.  The time flew by.  We had what I describe as “mini-seminars” from a few of our Sensei (black belt instructors).  This worked very well.  No one Sensei had the pressure of keeping everyone busy for a couple of hours because the workload was shared.

Either my Karate is so abysmal I need the attention, or black belts pay more attention to those my rank and above, or both.  In any case I noticed a definite uptick in the amount of input, feedback, and help from the Sensei who took it on themselves to help us color belts.  I always appreciate that individual attention in any setting!

I admit I struggled with one of the drills we were taught.  That said, it was my favorite “takeaway” from Godo Renshu.  I write down drills I can use in the future, when I am a Senesei.  Just because I had a hard time with it doesn’t mean that I automatically dismiss it.  Yes, I felt a little discouraged because I didn’t quite manage to perform it, but I recognized its value.  Others were having fun with and being challenged by it and that’s enough for me.  That and there’s something to be said for teaching the drill to my fellow students back home – I will learn it better myself.

As if all that fun wasn’t enough, we were divided into teams for team kumite (sparring).  I had a lot of fun cheering for team-mates and I got to fight once.  The feedback I got about my sparring from three of our organization’s black belts was very welcome.  I found myself itching to do more sparring in order to start building better habits.  But alas, the day was almost done.

All good things must come to an end.  To celebrate everything we’d accomplished and learned, we had a big party.  Good food, good people, games, and dancing was a perfect end to a great day.

I’m a few days into my new rank and already I’m thinking ahead to the next belt test.  As of September 29th, 2016 I am 4th kyu. This means I have taken seven tests and have four more tests to pass before I tie on a black belt. 4th kyu is significant in our system because preparation for the 3rd kyu test will require a lot from me. I’ll be training more intensively because the tests from here on out will be significantly harder. Yes, the seven tests I’ve already taken were challenging, but for the next test I take things will be kicked up to a whole ‘nother level. It’s going to take time, dedication, and a whole lot of hard work to build up my skills and my stamina.

I’ve blogged about the intensive training I did over the summer.  I didn’t go to USA Karate Nationals this year, but I trained alongside those who did.  Since then, I’ve continued a lot of the same calisthenic and cardio work.  I’ve even built myself up from where I was at the end of Nationals training.

The biggest thing for me to continue the calisthenic and cardio work was to pick a time that I have every day, and stick with it.  My dog and I hit the road jogging at 5:20 AM.  Yes, my life is that busy and my Karate class schedule is that wacky.

I need times to practice Karate, too.  This was easy in the summertime when I didn’t have to see anyone off to school.  There was ample daylight early in the morning, the weather was nice, and I had any number of outdoor places to go.  But now – it’s not so easy.  My day is more fragmented now that I have to drop off and pick up.  The daylight hours are rapidly dwindling.  The weather is getting cool and often rainy.  Winter is around the corner.  Practicing karate on days when I don’t have class is going to become more and more challenging.

I’m glad I decided to clean out the craft room.  I wasn’t doing much in the way of crafts even before Karate.  I pared everything down to what would fit in a little alcove and closet within the room.  The main part of the room is just big enough to do any given sequence from a kata, but not a whole kata.  It will have to do.  Now I have to pick a time and stick with it.

I will always be a beginner because there will always be more things to learn.  But at the same time, I’ve just taken the last “easy” belt test.  I will need to go out of state to the Hombu Dojo for all further tests.  The next test will be significantly more difficult.  What will be required of me is more than a little daunting.  It almost feels like I’m starting to leave childhood behind.

This weekend I will be making my yearly trip to watch black belt candidates test for their next tests.  Included in the day’s events will be color belt testing.  I might get to see someone my rank test.  You bet I will be paying very close attention.  I will be tweaking my exercise and practice as needed after watching these tests.

As I prepare over the course of the next few months, year, or year plus, I will have to trust my Sensei, my training, and myself more than ever.

“Thirty push ups,” Sensei told the class,  “Go.”

I felt the fierce joy surge up in me.

As I cranked out the first few pushups I realized I didn’t care about fair or unfair, hard or easy.

I remembered how earlier in the month I’d tested myself to see if I’d reached my 2016 New Year’s resolution goal of being able to do thirty pushups in one set.  I had.

Fifteen.  In no time flat I found myself halfway done.  I cheered myself on.

Twenty – not so easy now, but I reminded myself that’s two-thirds done.

Twenty two – the number of push ups a friend challenged me to do every day for twenty two days. I was on Day 19. Twenty two was old hat.  At this point, I smiled.  Only eight more to go.

I had another surge of the fierce joy.  At this point I was hoping Sensei was watching.  I must confess I had the mindset of showing off what I could do.  I was determined to shine.  I wanted a witness that I’d reached my New Year’s resolution.

Twenty seven – finish strong.  Twenty eight – I can!  Twenty nine – I will!  Thirty – I did!

With a quick contraction of my abdominal muscles I gathered my legs under myself and jumped up.  Landing neatly on my feet, I snapped to attention and bowed as if I’d just finished a kata (form).  No freaking way was I going to show any more weakness than I already had during the last three reps.  I stood triumphant.  But it’s not entirely my triumph.

I didn’t achieve this ability alone.  I’ve had help along the way.  I have online acquaintances and quite a few real-life friends, acquaintances, and Senseis who invested time into my push ups – whether that be by cheering me on, showing me proper push up form, or simply ordering me to crank out the reps.  If you’re one of those who has helped me, thank you.  You believed in me and I am thankful.

I think it’s time to set a new goal.

There’s a variation of a push up that I had not done in awhile because I’d forgotten it exists.  You go down in a regular push up.  After you come up you grab a hand weight in your right hand.  Bring the weight to your chest, turn your body to the right, extend your right arm up to the ceiling, bring the weight into your chest again, turn your body to the floor, then put the weight on the floor again.  Do a pushup, then do the same thing on the left side of your body.

At a training session for Karate I was plugging along with five pounds, which is what I had been using while training intensively earlier this summer.  I came down for a pushup.  When I came back up the dojo Sensei replaced my hand-weight.  It looked bigger.

Sometimes thoughts and emotions take only an instant to process.  My first reaction was dismay.  I told myself to do the exercise anyway.  I wondered just how heavy the weight was.  Eight pounds?  Ten?

Then I asked myself, “Does it really matter?  Sensei thinks I can do it.”

After that heartbeat, I said, “Ossu!” and finished the set with the heavy weight.

After I finished the set, I examined the weight.  Ten pounds.  Twice as much weight as I had started with.

“Strive to reach your limits” is a line from our dojo kun (very rough translation: school motto).  We recite the dojo kun before and after every class.  It’s clear that sometimes I don’t know where my limits are.  I thought it was five pounds for this exercise.  Nope.

I sometimes undermine myself by thinking, “Aw, no – I can’t possibly do that!”  Why?

I’ve done many things I thought I’d fail at.  So why do I still sometimes undermine myself?  I guess it’s human nature to be a little afraid of risks.  Part of my initial dismay at seeing the bigger hand weight was fear of failure and injury.  I guess this fear of taking risks is meant to keep us fully aware that there might be a saber-tooth tiger parked outside the cave entrance. The trick is to deal with this “caveman” brain rationally, like a good little homo sapiens.

The trick is trust.  Trust yourself.  If you’ve already decided your instructor is trustworthy, then be confident in your judgment of him or her.  I’m not saying blindly trust everything – sometimes a little bit of skepticism is healthy.  But do not hesitate to plunge right in and try something difficult.  Your instructors probably took the same risks they’re asking you to take (hint: “Sensei” means, “one who has gone before”).  They know how empowered you’ll feel when you accomplish the feat.

In a previous blog post (“Forge“) I drew an analogy between martial arts training and iron being shaped in a forge.

I recently participated in a conversation with a blacksmith who was talking with people watching him work at the state fair’s forge.

Someone asked, “Did you learn this from your father?”

“No,” replied the blacksmith, “I learned smithing on my own.”

My daughter asked, “Isn’t it dangerous to learn on your own?”

“Sure it is.  I’ve been burned a lot,” answered the blacksmith, “so I learned quickly.”

My child was horrified, so I assured her, “If you respect the fire, that reduces the risk of getting hurt.  But things still happen.”

The blacksmith added, “You have to really want to learn.  See, I think this is fun – I get to play in the fire all day long.  But yeah, it takes a lot of time to learn – a lot of dedication.  It’s hard work.”

I didn’t have time to do more than meet his eyes and silently communicate that I understood before someone asked a technical question and the smith went into a long, detailed explanation.  My daughter and I moved on to another part of the fair.

What the blacksmith had to say resonated deep within me.  Training is dangerous.  We do get hurt sometimes, and yes, pain can teach us.  And oh yes, we have to want to learn in order to reach higher and higher ranks.  If we’re serious we’ll devote a lot of time and effort to learning.  It helps a lot if we keep our sense of fun.  I think this smith would understand us martial artists.  We are passionate about what we do.  We play with fire and we are shaped by it.